It’s been almost a month but like the sentimental biotch that I am, I still wanted to sit down and reflect on turning another year older. I am officially on the later side of my twenties (I know I technically was at 25 but it still feels very much like the middle ground) and while I am such a huge fan lists I think the things I’ve learned in the last year can be summed up without that type of format. I’m also including some cute snapshots from my birthday shenanigans!
I had a lot of big plans for being 25. I listed them here and while I knew at the time it was a hefty list, I still can’t help but chuckle now at how carried away I get sometimes. Don’t get me wrong, it’s a good list. But did I accomplish most of it? Nah dawg.
I don’t think that’s just due to the sheer size of the list or the time and energy that each task required. I think I didn’t do most of those things because you can’t plan out your life. This is coming from someone who loves to plan every second of every day. And while of course, you can plan a trip to take the following year and set a goal to get a promotion and try to drink more water, you can never guarantee life is going to go the way you want it to.
While I didn’t go to a six-week workout boot camp and get insane abs, I did start taking Pilates classes 3 days a week and saw my body get stronger and more toned every month. I didn’t write a book (LOL) but I did start a dating podcast and am working on the second season. I didn’t finish decorating my apartment but I did move into a bigger place for less $$. Things shift and change and the unexpected happens all the time.
I think what I’ve learned most this year is to give myself grace and allow myself to take the time I need to reach my goals in my own way. I am an extremely impatient person and I always want everything now now now. But life doesn’t work that way. I have learned to be okay with the small victories, the steady daily progress and the little moments that tell me I’m making things happen, even when I can’t see the finished result just yet. I don’t want to waste my life feeling bad about not being “there” yet because there is here and now. And I want to enjoy it thoroughly.
This year a lot of exciting things happened. I started my podcast. I paid off a lot of student/credit card debt and have been the most together financially I have ever been in my life. I moved into a much larger space and now actually have a nice kitchen to cook in. I started therapy and have been so much happier and accepting of myself.
In so many ways it feels like my life has radically improved and in others, I still feel like there’s a lot of growth left. Which like, duh. I’m 26, not 86. I started my 25th year (or 26th technically?) feeling very ready to make big, huge changes. I felt empowered and ambitious and excited. I felt on the cusp of change and I was right. Things have changed, just not in all of the ways I thought they would. Some for better, some for worse. All have helped me grow and learn.
And now I am feeling a greater sense of calm, determination and self-assurance. I’m okay with things taking time and unfolding the way they’re supposed to.
Anyone else feeling reflective lately? Maybe it’s the end of year blues! Wishing all of my fellow Scorpio girls (although I think our season has ended) happy belated birthdays!
Xo,
She
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